Its all fun and games until somebody goes and puts the mocks timetable up. That’s when the panic starts. That chapter you studied a month ago? Yeah, now you can’t even manage the short questions on it. Hamlet seems like a distant memory. Home Ec was meant to be general knowledge. What’s the name of the main guy in Il Postino again?!
Such is the debacle that I’ve been facing this past week or two. I’m not panicking as of yet, but there’s still the continuous twinge of nerves that maybe, just maybe, I’m gonna disappoint myself. See the thing is, I’m well aware that the mocks are just a trial and error process… If you’re to make a mistake, make it now and then learn from it. They’re glorified Christmas exams – a timing practice!
I know the teachers aren’t going to mind too much if I don’t get that A I’m working towards, and my parents have already told me that they’ll be happy with whatever I get. But it’s not them I’m worried about pleasing – It’s me. I’m my own biggest critic, and I’m competing against my own self-inflicted standards. Stupid isn’t it?? Yup. My stress is entirely self-induced! But if I were to hazard a guess, I’d say many of you are in the same boat.
From looking at the site these past few days, it’s obvious a universal panic has set in – allhonours is buzzing with LCs and JCs and we’re all looking for the same thing – some sorta assurance that we’ll all be sorted for the mocks. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again…. its not gonna happen guys. Might as well relax about it and let things play themselves out (The hypocrite that I am really needs to start taking her own advice). Well, if you’re all anything like me, then the following situation should sound a tad familiar and perhaps reassuring:
1. You emptied your locker on Friday, knowing you’d need all the books to study over the weekend.
2. These books have now become a mountainous bundle piled high on your desk.
3. Trekking through this bundle seems like an Everest challenge.
4. You decided the most rational thing to do is start making charts and drawing out memory keys.
5. They work out great. You stick them up on the wall and never look at them again.
6. Your business/ economics teacher asks you about current affairs. You havent a clue. It’s been so long since you had time for the news that you’re shocked to hear Egypt is a bad LC holiday destination.
7. You’re keenly listening to any reference the teachers make about the mocks. If they say “I haven’t seen the paper” Its clearly a cover. “This might be up” is a given that it’ll be the first question. “Revise this if you’ve time” means CODE RED – STUDY OR FAIL.
8. You hear from a classmate….”I’m screwed. I just revised chapter 1 -23 twice this week, and only managed to finish 10 long questions in 15mins. My essay on Hamlet is only 17 pages long. I’m totally gonna fail.” Dont listen to them, they’ll just get you down. Let them at it. See how much they get written in at the exam.. that’ll teach them.
9. Your newfound guide to brainfood: No I will not eat porridge for breakfast. Slow release of energy? Hah. My fool proof concoction of coffee, diet coke, berocca boost, lucozade and honey gives me all the energy I need… (Dont actually try this, its disgusting and will probably kill more braincells than one can afford to lose)
10. Such is your persona: I’m not cranky after school, I’m a brave little soldier. I’m carrying on despite all the pressure and the weight of the world being on my back (literally). My life is an eternal pit of doom right now… but I’m struggling on. Have sympathy for poor me and pity my condition by giving me chocolate, comfy blankets and not giving out that I haven’t tidied my room since August………
So yeah. That’s my life right now in a nutshell. Stress is building. Study is mounting. Mocks are pending. The good news is, I’ve more chocolate than I can handle. It’s all just a matter of perspective isn’t it?
Sorcha x