Hello Everybody!!

Since it’s been aaaaages since my last blog, you might think I’d have a lot to say….Do I??!!! Um…no, not really….

Anyhoo, how’s everyone xmas been? I hope you all had a good one and said f*ck the study! My Christmas was pretty much spent doing Sweet FA…I barely even bothered getting dressed. But I needed the relaxing break of TV, endless cups of tea and DVDs. I’m all re-energised now though with nothing to do. So, I started my history project.

I actually love history but for some reason when it comes to tests such as the mocks and the actual LC, I can’t remember a thing! I spent 10 minutes during the last year’s history exam begging my brain to think of something about dictators but my brain let me down and I practically ran from the hall with the examiner thinking I was on crack or something. The worst bit was that for the mocks, I knew every single question that was going to come up so you think, easy peasy, right? Eh….no. I managed to fail that should-a been an easy A exam because I couldn’t think…at all! So, how do you study for history? I don’t exactly know but I will figure it out….later.

But for now, I’m focusing on my project, the one thing that doesn’t want make me want to reach for a bottle of vodka whenever I think of it. I’m doing mine on The Moors Murders. Why? I don’t know…because I can’t do something normal like The Titanic or The Holocaust, I have to go for the weird stuff. But I nearly have it done so yaaaay! Downside, I haven’t slept at night in a week…aaaargh! I really enjoyed doing the project though. It took a while to research and it involved getting in-touch with a distant cousin who now thinks I’m some sort of crazy nutjob with sociopathic tendencies (I’m not though…promise!)

On another completely random note…The CAO is completely finito. I’m adamant that I’m not going to change it on a daily basis like I did last year. Even though, I can’t make a decision to save my life, journalism in UL is my final 1st choice so fingers crossed this time!! I’ve lost my CAO number anyway so I can’t change it even if I do decide one day that I wanted to do psychology or something. I do that…A lot!

So, I think I’ve blabbered on enough now. I’m going to get going on my economics and the exciting chapter of…wait for it….International Trade…woo hoo!

(I’m such a wild wan really! )

G’luck Everyone!

Omg. I don’t know what happened but once I saw the timetable I got really excited haha.

Maybe it’s because I’ve 4 days study before my evil Spanish exam .

I’ve the last of my christmas tests tomorrow, spanish and english.

Spanish is going to have an opinion piece, dialogue and comprehensions. I’m really not very into that language, but I’m learning off useful vocabulary so fingers crossed it comes in…useful!

English is just King Lear and a Vision and Viewpoint Question. A lot of people don’t seem to like Vision and Viewpoint, I don’t mind it, it’s more Cultural Context I can’t do.

Economics, Biology and History today and oh dear god. I studied 3 essays for history, hoping to god Spain came up as an essay instead of France. But no, French wars of religion was an essay, and not even the bit of the French Wars that I understood. The end of them, I haven’t the faintiest why they ended, but in the words of this leaving cert student: “The main figure heads for the Huguenot religion and Catholicism died. And the country was not in the finanical state to continue the wars,”

…attempt marks there somewhere…please? lol. Biology went much better, my crazy studying at 5 this morning must have helped. Ditto with Economics but I drew the wrong curve…hopefully I won’t lose too many marks cos I studied so hard over the weekend.

Anyways, I was only posting because I haven’t done so in so long. I’m about to go off and learn my opening paragraph for the Vision and Viewpoint question I’m doing tomorrow.

Love from

Aims

xxx (Merry Xmas to everyone if I don’t post again until after )

Hey guys!

I can’t actually remember the last time I blogged. I’m terrible! I’ve become so lazy these days…I’m barely making it into school! But that’s been put a stop to since…..THE XMAS REPORT. I wasn’t really planning on letting my parents see it but they insisted that I give it to them. I always hated school reports. There’s always some comment or result I figure is safer not to let them see. But the results weren’t too bad…English 68, French 60, Biology 75, History 70, Business 86…fairly alright results for me but do you think the teachers could leave it at that…hmmm….no!

There had to be remarks about my high absenteeism from school. I had my father convinced that I didn’t actually have to go to school the full week and only really had to go for three days tops. Everyone was happy out with this arrangement..especially me! But now it’s been ruined. The teachers couldn’t just write good result or whatever, they had to point out the bad also. Is it really only me that understands that I can work far better at my own pace at home with my kettle at hand?? Now, my father is insisting that I go in…Everyday! That’d be fine except…I have 25 free classes a week! I don’t want to spend all that time sitting in a cold hall. And I get so much done at home….I really want to quit school…..

But on the plus side Joe won the X Factor!! He is actually sex on legs! Though my friend thinks he possibly bats for the other side…not my opinion though…himself and Mrs. Cole have deffo got something going on! And The Apprentice Final is on tonight….bets to whos gonna win?? Steve Rayner ftw!!

So, asides from the whole ‘I have to go to school thing’, Life is good!  Btw, does anyone know where I can watch Il Postino on the ‘net??

They watched it in English but….I wasn’t in….ok, maybe they do have a point….I also do have a lot of homework to catch up on….Oh shit!Gotta go!

So, where to begin?… I’ve always assumed the beginning is a good place to start…:)

My name is Ian (a.k.a StressingOut) and this year I’m repeating the ol’ Leaving Cert. If any of you think doing it once is/was tough, try doing it a second time! Presently, I’m sitting at the dining-room table with about thirty textbooks for six different subjects -(I’m not fully convinced I’ll be attempting Biology again yet) - and all I can see are the wonderful English books, the marvellous Irish texts, the captivating French tracts, the inspiring History tomes, the amorous Music publications and of course the euphoria-inducing Maths eulogies….sarcastic much? And yet I cannot afford to screw up this time for you see, I live in the countryside and because of ye ol’ recession I’m not seeing nearly as much nightlife as I’m accustomed to! I reside in a rather beautiful house, but a house nevertheless, and I feel, due to the connotations of the ever-serene countryside, I’m becoming a tad deranged, like I’m suffering “cabin fever” or I’m becoming the Mr. Hyde to compliment my Dr. Jekyll! And all because I did nothing in preparation for my first attempt at the L.C….that’s right: nothing, nada, zilch! I wasted every single day, only listening in English class, and disrespecting the study of all other subjects! Coming out of the dark tunnel into what I thought would be blinding white light, I painfully received only 315….for shame! and thus, back into the tunnel I go! Study, study, study!… the odd episode of Scrubs…and rather embarrassingly The X-Factor!…and then I fall back to “Study, study, study!” And that is why it is imperative I do well; to leave la campagne behind and head for the city!

What is worse I find, is that not only do I have to repeat the L.C. but, I must do so without the assistance of a secondary school staff! That’s right! I’m all by myself this year and yet, I feel I deserve it for my lack of enthusiasm back in 2008! You never know, I might actually do some work this year without annoying qualified teachers telling me what I pretend I already know! Take it from me, if your in a school with teachers who are doing their best for you at least do them the courtesy by going in everyday! I wish I had and deeply regret it now!

The whole stress and strain of “doing it” by one’s self is ten times as strenuous or stressful as when you have an adult who knows all the answers of the subject they teach by your side. ‘Sir’ and ‘Miss’ are two words that have evaporated from my vocabulary and I cannot depend on the two figures led by the words ‘Mam’ and ‘Dad’ because they’ve never done the L.C. (and besides, the course would have changed drastically from their day even if they had). I depend solely on myself…ah! Poor me! I’m not looking for empathy, or even sympathy, but merely trying to express my regrets at not taking the L.C. seriously enough last time when I did have the comforts of a worn-out copy of Othello and a basic dose of nutrition come one o’clock. I’m by myself. I grow increasingly confused about the hours I put in for study and the lack of hours I put in for sleep!

And besides, how much work is enough? How much work is too much? And what is it all for anyway? : 2-3 hour examinations set in June to purposefully (and conspirationally, me thinks!) keep hormonally-imbalanced 16-20 year-olds inside on hot –  (o.k. Irish weather is technically not “hot”) –  summer days when we should be outside on “the moors” shouting out for our lovers, or in suburbia contemplating the temperment of a “War Horse”….if that is your idea of fun Ms. Bronte and Mrs. Boland! Should we ostracize ourselves from society just to achieve something that neither matters nor inspires when we are simply dust in a coffin? True experience does not exist in books. Powerful and beautiful they may be but that is simply what they are: books.

O.K., I realise that there is some light at the end of this seemingly never-ending tunnel. That is, should one do well, one gets to gallavant off to UCD, TCD or NUI to, yet again, study for a further 3-4 years in hopes of aquiring one’s dream job: teaching in a run-down school in the arse end of Wicklow or playing with chemicals in Schering Plough. Whatever the case, UNI better be as good as “they” say it is if I’m putting as much effort into this as I’m implying I am in this blog!…

So the cobwebs of my brain are dusted away, the foglights I use as eyes are framed and blazing, and my mind is raring to go…well nearly…but the X-Factor results show is tonight so “I got to go”!

Ian